Stress, emotional/mental issues and Steriods

[dago]

I am by no means a steriod expert but this much I do know. If you are under a lot of stress or have had something happen to you recentley that is just one of those things that is so shocking and dramatic I can tell you being on juice when tradgedy strikes is not at all a good thing for you or the people around you. Something really bad has happened to me in the last week and I just cannot seem to digest it or let it go. My current cycle 500mg test-e/200mg tren-e/300mg eq. When I first started this cycle I felt great and seeing awesome results 10 weeks in and was very happy. A little cocky and smart ass sometimes but pretty much a laid back chill type guy unless someone fucks with me first and even then I have been able to hold my composure and walk away for the sake of my child I know she needs her daddy period. The shit I speak on as to what happened has me completely out of control. My dad locked up all the guns in the safe so I could not get to them. I wake up mad can't sleep because I'm mad I stay fucking pissed 24/7. I have my moments where it seems to go away but it doesn't last long. I almost got fired at work the other day because I punched a locker dented the whole side in and there was a cup of coffee sitting on top that went flying all over someone behind me. I don't think I have ever been so angry in my life. I know it may be stupid to say this on a public forum but I seriously thought about doing something really stupid. So I took a picture of my daughter and looked at it for a few moments and called a couple people and told them what I was thinking so that I would always know in the back of my mind that people know how I feel and would go to the cops. Kind of reverse psychology on myself you know like saying to myself bro people know and if something happens you will be the first person they look at to keep myself from doing something I will regret. I am so going through it right now I wanna kill this motherfucker so bad it has consumed me. My life went from great to fucked in the blink of an eye. The shock of the betrayal is just now really setting in. I can't seem to get a grip. I broke my window out of my kitchen door, thought about trying to throw the fridge out the door. Anybody looks at me I wanna tear there heads off. I even got tears in my eyes at work the other day and I haven't cried since my grandfather passed in 96. I really think the steriods are fueling my anger to a level I have really never known but then again I have never had anything like this happen to me so I have thought maybe I would react this way even if not on because of the seriousness of the situation. I think maybe I should pull out of my cycle and run a pct until I can get past this. I try to be the same old same old but i'm not me right now and can't seem to get back. Ima try to get some sleep and will be hoping for some positive feedback on this I really need it guys

[Mr I]

Totally agree, low test can leave you a dithering woman but too much and your a trigger happy over reactor and tren is a total no no

[Bouncer]

Dump the tren and eq and stay on test.

It's the tren, this is the warning I always give people. Tren makes me mentally ill. My mindset and thoughts on tren were out of a fucken nightmare.

You are reacting to tren mentally the same way I did. This is why I am so against tren. I hate it with everything in my soul!

[Bouncer]

Totally agree, low test can leave you a dithering woman but too much and your a trigger happy over reactor and tren is a total no no

Nothing to do with the test. Not what he is describing.

[Mr I]

^ and I told you all about that before you tried it! So what your saying is mr incredible was right all along:thumup:

[Bouncer]

Dago if you drop everything you will go from extremely agitated to extremely depressed.

Trust when I tell you, stay on the test. If you want you could lower the dose just a bit something like 250-300mgs per week.

Drop the tren immediately bro. I fucken hate that shit drug.

[Bouncer]

^ and I told you all about that before you tried it! So what your saying is mr incredible was right all along:thumup:

Haha

[blm]

You already know what the problem is. You knew it before writing this post, but just wanted some reinforcement of your thoughts. I agree with Bouncer; lose everything but the test. And I would keep that at a low dose and allow yourself some time to get your mind in order.

[GrowthMan]

Agree verbatim with all. You've been hitting it good for at least a couple months. Cruise but I wouldn't suggest completely coming off b/c you will be on the other end of the spectrum. Low dose test little hcg.

[ROCKETW19]

I agree with almost all of what bouncer said! do not come off for sure but yes drop the tren now EQ will do nothing you can keep or you can cut it Either way it wont matter.
Tren is not as bad on me as it is with bouncer but if you are pissed it will make anger 10 times worse.

I always say if you have to do it do it. I will goto Jail for beating someone so be it. I will not kill someone like that but if you feel so strong about it give him a beat down fuck it 30 days in jail isnt so bad

[Mr I]

Dago if you drop everything you will go from extremely agitated to extremely depressed.

Trust when I tell you, stay on the test. If you want you could lower the dose just a bit something like 250-300mgs per week.

Drop the tren immediately bro. I fucken hate that shit drug.

Exactly my earlier point, thanks

[Ashop]

Dago if you drop everything you will go from extremely agitated to extremely depressed.

Trust when I tell you, stay on the test. If you want you could lower the dose just a bit something like 250-300mgs per week.

Drop the tren immediately bro. I fucken hate that shit drug.

Good advice I would keep your testosterone levels in a good range to avoid even further depression.

[dago]

I will drop everything but the test and just do 250mg weekly thanks

[Bouncer]

I agree with almost all of what bouncer said! do not come off for sure but yes drop the tren now EQ will do nothing you can keep or you can cut it Either way it wont matter.
Tren is not as bad on me as it is with bouncer but if you are pissed it will make anger 10 times worse.

I always say if you have to do it do it. I will goto Jail for beating someone so be it. I will not kill someone like that but if you feel so strong about it give him a beat down fuck it 30 days in jail isnt so bad

Stop being a dumb ass. Jail isn't so bad, stfu. Lol

[dago]

I agree with almost all of what bouncer said! do not come off for sure but yes drop the tren now EQ will do nothing you can keep or you can cut it Either way it wont matter.
Tren is not as bad on me as it is with bouncer but if you are pissed it will make anger 10 times worse.

I always say if you have to do it do it. I will goto Jail for beating someone so be it. I will not kill someone like that but if you feel so strong about it give him a beat down fuck it 30 days in jail isnt so bad

He couldn't handle it i'd kill him anyways..plus he is scared right now and has a concealed weapons permit to pack. He would shoot me if he seen me coming