Roid Rage - I lost my cool for the first time.

[goliath]

i have NEVER had roid rage and never really believed in it. i still don't know if i would have reacted any differently had i not been on. anyway...

i ride my bike just about every where right now as a fun and easy way to get my cardio in. well today a guy tried to run me off the road and then got stopped by a traffic light. well i caught him at the light and i completely lost control of myself. i mean totally. i was like a fucking animal. i tried to first open his door, the whole time yelling at the top of my lungs cussing at him, trying, no darring him to get out of his truck. he wouldn't get out so i tried to break the window with my elbow. then he just floored it and ran the light. and in retrospect i am SO glad he did. if he had gotten out, it terrifies me to think about what i would have done to him. i know whatever the outcome it would have been a one way ticket to jail for me, and a trip to the ER for him. i am still trembling from the anger. what really disturbs me is it was like i was feeding off the fear in his eyes...like that was just taking me further and further from reality. fuck man...it was messed up.

[4t34g3h5]

I'd lose it if someone tried to harm me too.

Chalk it up to another asshole in the world.

[goliath]

moved...doesn't have much to do with AAS.

[ronmolina]

I have been like that a few times in my life and had nothing to do with juice.

[Stonecold54]

what are you running for gear right now? I feel the same way. too many people don't respect bikes nowadays.

[trip]

Curious, did he really try and run you off the road?

or

Was he just careless and not paying attention, and almost ran you off?


either way, I get like that after being on ECA's for a long time, find myself taking action way before thinking, and even sometimes thinking and then in blink of eye totally disregarding it, it is a messed up thing, that get's the blood pumping

Glad to hear the fortunate son worked in your favor.

[Trojanmn2]

Never had the rage, only time I was pissed off on belief was when I was on Hydroxycut back when it still had ephedra and I didn't drink enougth H20 the entire day, and boy I was fucking poed at my boss, coworkers because of the damn customers

[goliath]

i'm running 750 mg/week of sust right now and that's it. i don't think it was the juice...i think it was just an old fashioned case of wanting to teach someone a lesson with my fists. and you're right trip...people have no resect for bikes...people have given me attitude before while driving...just honking or whatever. they are usually fat asses, sucking down a hamburger while driving with one hand. but this guy was intentional. he pulled around me, got beside me, then moved over. obviously lacking the forsight to notice the stoplight in front of him being red. and yes...he was a fat fucking slob smoking a cigarette. god damn...i need to stay home today...i still feel like severely hurting someone. everytime i think about it i can feel the rage building.

[Bdubb]

Goliath,

I know the feeling. Before I even had a thought about doing juice I had a temper that was very violent and very agressive. Now that I have done a few cycles I have learned a little bit more about things and try not to have my blood boil too easily. Usually I'm happy while on, but when I come off is when I have trouble acting like a normal person at all times, thus I am left with f'ed up hands.

I can't say that you acted in a wrong way entirely. Him running you off the road comes into play with your life while ridding a bike, and I wouldn't say I would have acted any different. Just remember about the conceal and carry laws here in Texas and be thankful things didn't go beyond what they did.

With all that, look on the bright side, you used your elbow instead of fist and prevented breaking your hand. If I had only thought as much as to do that I'd be much better off.

[goliath]

it's funny you guys keep mentioning ECA...i had just finished a 'speed stack'. i wonder if that was what made me go so out of control?

[Bdubb]

Originally posted by goliath
everytime i think about it i can feel the rage building.

This makes me feel better and lets me know I'm not the only one that gets crazed at times just from thinking about a past event.

[goliath]

Originally posted by Bdubb
Just remember about the conceal and carry laws here in Texas and be thankful things didn't go beyond what they did.

my wife said the same thing....

Originally posted by Bdubb
With all that, look on the bright side, you used your elbow instead of fist and prevented breaking your hand. If I had only thought as much as to do that I'd be much better off.

lol - been down that road to. boxers fractures suck.

[Bdubb]

Yeah, just got billed the other day saying the insurance didn't want to cover 2 years of medical bills from my fractures. Just waiting to find a way out of paying now and getting the right people to cover the bills.

[psyko1]

damn, i hate assholes. you're right about being lucky and not going to jail though. personally, my shirt would've been wrapped around my hand and i'd have pulled him out of the car and beat the piss out of him and been on my merry way. with a big ol' smile on my face. you know what, it would've served him right.

[trip]

Well, ECA's kind of like open up the door to the limbic part of the brain, or the fight or flight response naturally programmed into us.

Under normal circumstances, ie, non-ECA, our thoughts and thought process come first, and thus minimize any of the limbic's reaction.

On ECA's thoughts seem to have no bearing cause it's all controlled by the limbic, thus reaction-response is fight or flight, and normally it comes out as a fight response because we were threatened, and that threat, ( since their is no thoughts to minimize ) is now felt on a very raw and immediate basis, thus the quick, without thinking response.

You've been on gear awhile, so guess the ECA first.

Does pump up that blood though, lol, ( know it well , all too well )