harder then i thought it was going to be

[bigscott]

i have to admit i am having a hard time with my nephews death -- sitting in funeral home today going over everything i was ok untill we went to look at caskets -

fucking hit me like a ton of bricks -- i refuse to cry as i feel i need to stay solid for my sister .. we are a splinterd family and today was first time that my sister wrapped around me and wouldnt let me go we have never been real close untill now -- sad it takes death to pull people together .. i almost lost it when she held onto me but i cant its just the way i am ... i just feel i need to hold it together for my sis !!!

tuesday will be the hardest -- i am trying to get myself mentally prepared for viewing his body to be sure he looks good -

it will be the first time my sister has seen him .. going to look at him before her so i can brace her then hold her every step going in to look at him and every step out - funeral director tried to broach the reality of his wounds lightly as possible today but i just asked him to be strait with us so he was -- its going to take some work to get him presentable -

they had a candle light vigil last night and ran into some issues with the bloods he use to hang with -- fights broke out -- the 2 cops blocking the street off did nothing 8 more showed up and they did nothing its fucked up --

i have issues with how LE handled this whole thing -- force him to testify knowing full well he just signed his own death warrent then leave him in the wind - they are trying to clean it up by printing some pretty shitty things that had no bearing on this issue in the local papers

i am very angry !!!

on top of this a week before a young 19 year old was shot 3 times , beaten in the face till you couldnt tell who he was then they took a knife and cut up his face some more so the parents couldnt have a open casket -- you want to know what for ?? he let a girl that was dating a gang member use his cell phone to call for help after he beat the shit out of her .. he was just a kid walking down the fucking street -- wrong place wrong time for him ..



this whole situation just sours me

wheres the respect , loyalty, honor -- theres no more men growing up in this world just a bunch of bitches that cant handle a strait up fight

[blm]

It's sad. I feel for ya bro. Remember this when you scorn people with 'tough love'. Whether it's murder, suicide, or natural death it's still devastating to the families left behind.

It's a shame he was so young and so deeply involved with gang activity. Regardless of how LE handled situation he ultimately signed his own warrant by getting wrapped up in shit like that.

[dna9488]

That's fucked up. Getting killed of helping someone. Speechless Scott. I hope you guys get through this. I am glad you and your sister are getting close. No one is better than family.

[Bouncer]

yea, i cant deal with all that shit. depresses the fuck outta me.

[the art of war]

scott - while my situation is different, having just been to a funeral past week, it leaves me me so fucking pissed off I can't put it in words. In the same way that bad choices were made that led to your nephews death, my friend chose his life and it killed him. I do not compare negatives, but losing family is the one time I will say you have much more on your plate than I do, all along trying to balance the emotions and be that rock for your family.

The whole gang thing, it makes me sick. People are afraid to be men on their own, so they get a few shitty guns, shitty friends, make shitty choices and think that their dick just grew - fuck all that, what makes you a man is lightyears from that. I again send my prayers and best wishes to your entire family. I know it's a tough time to talk about it - but I'd suggest really sitting down with your daughters and use this situation to show them that these want to be tough guy piece of shits that walk around like they run shit are nothing but weak fucks who will bring them down. Sorry if this is a little soon to be suggesting something like this - but for them to see death of a family member, could well make them think twice when they see some "cute" little wigger (again NO offense to your daughters, I am just trying to find some way to use this tragedy to serve a purpose.

[bigscott]

scott - while my situation is different, having just been to a funeral past week, it leaves me me so fucking pissed off I can't put it in words. In the same way that bad choices were made that led to your nephews death, my friend chose his life and it killed him. I do not compare negatives, but losing family is the one time I will say you have much more on your plate than I do, all along trying to balance the emotions and be that rock for your family.

The whole gang thing, it makes me sick. People are afraid to be men on their own, so they get a few shitty guns, shitty friends, make shitty choices and think that their dick just grew - fuck all that, what makes you a man is lightyears from that. I again send my prayers and best wishes to your entire family. I know it's a tough time to talk about it - but I'd suggest really sitting down with your daughters and use this situation to show them that these want to be tough guy piece of shits that walk around like they run shit are nothing but weak fucks who will bring them down. Sorry if this is a little soon to be suggesting something like this - but for them to see death of a family member, could well make them think twice when they see some "cute" little wigger (again NO offense to your daughters, I am just trying to find some way to use this tragedy to serve a purpose.

i hate fucking wiggers bro !!!! we have been using this as a learning tool .. i do believe its doing its job .. specially on my oldest who likes the little nigger thug types - hitting her hard --

i am taking them right up to the open casket wensday .. making sure they get a good look .. i want it ingrained in there minds

[the art of war]

i hate fucking wiggers bro !!!! we have been using this as a learning tool .. i do believe its doing its job .. specially on my oldest who likes the little nigger thug types - hitting her hard --

i am taking them right up to the open casket wensday .. making sure they get a good look .. i want it ingrained in there minds

exactly bro - I'm glad I managed to get that across without wording it wrong, fucking messy situation my dude. I grew up with those kids, I thought gangs were cool, look at where that got me? Now I'm free and moving on, n=most members I know do not ever change and end up in jail or dead.. this is the reality of it.

[bigscott]

It's sad. I feel for ya bro. Remember this when you scorn people with 'tough love'. Whether it's murder, suicide, or natural death it's still devastating to the families left behind.

It's a shame he was so young and so deeply involved with gang activity. Regardless of how LE handled situation he ultimately signed his own warrant by getting wrapped up in shit like that.

murder and natural death --apples and oranges -- suicide is a fucking cop out !!!!

cj getting caught up in the gang life is not lost on this bro -- he dug his hole !!! i give him much respect for standing up like a man and willing to fight the motherfucker knowing where it could lead and did lead !!!

he chose it -- lived by the sword died by it !!! i actually respect that he walked it !!! i will let them fly there colors at the funeral .. lets me know who is who


i feel sorry for my sister she gave birth to him now has to bury him

[wnabeabeast]

Hey bro my heart goes out to you and your family I can't even begin to imagine how hard this must be for your whole family, imho shedding tears for the love one you've lost is not weakness nor it is a sign of falling a part.

[blm]

murder and natural death --apples and oranges -- suicide is a fucking cop out !!!!

cj getting caught up in the gang life is not lost on this bro -- he dug his hole !!! i give him much respect for standing up like a man and willing to fight the motherfucker knowing where it could lead and did lead !!!

he chose it -- lived by the sword died by it !!! i actually respect that he walked it !!! i will let them fly there colors at the funeral .. lets me know who is who


i feel sorry for my sister she gave birth to him now has to bury him

Then deal with it.

[bigscott]

Then deal with it.

:rofl:

[Mr I]

Your doing well Bigscott, helping organise things, thinking about whats best for everyone, your family should be proud.