Open thanks

[Bouncer]

with an addictive personality, we will always have the urge to take things to the extreme. It is all about focusing that energy onto something positive rather than negative. As bad as addicts try to destroy themselves, addicts can just as well build themselves up.

exactly. i have an addictive personality. i just always choose things that will benefit me rather then hurt me.

[alwaysgrowing]

exactly. i have an addictive personality. i just always choose things that will benefit me rather then hurt me.

That is all you can do. The drive will always be there. Whether we are addicted to the gym, drugs, girls, power, thrills, cooking, running...the list could go on and on. We are unlike other people. It is a fact that will never change.

What can change is how we utilize that drive. We must be careful because the smallest slip up in our lives can lead to a downward spiral. At the same time, we can take the smallest semblance of light and drive through that bitch like a freight train and go get what we want. I would be no other way

[the art of war]

with an addictive personality, we will always have the urge to take things to the extreme. It is all about focusing that energy onto something positive rather than negative. As bad as addicts try to destroy themselves, addicts can just as well build themselves up.

I heard that 100x in detoxes and never bought until I tried, and I am stubborn as fuck with my goals now - it is true bro, well put.

[Bouncer]

We must be careful because the smallest slip up in our lives can lead to a downward spiral. At the same time, we can take the smallest semblance of light and drive through that bitch like a freight train and go get what we want.

very well said and very true.

negative things effect me more then others for some reason. i cant watch negative news etc.. or else i get depressed.

on the flip side of that, i have the ability to feel extremely good about myself (some would call it cocky) when i am doing the right thing, surrounding myself with the right people, thinking the right thoughts, etc..

[alwaysgrowing]

very well said and very true.

negative things effect me more then others for some reason. i cant watch negative news etc.. or else i get depressed.

on the flip side of that, i have the ability to feel extremely good about myself (some would call it cocky) when i am doing the right thing, surrounding myself with the right people, thinking the right thoughts, etc..

I come off as extremely cocky. I am intelligent, as well as in better shape than the majority of people. Yet, I dwell on the negative always. But I use it as a push to succeed. I am upset when I see someone smarter than myself, r in better shape, or whatever. I am now addicted to being the best. It is better than the alternative

[alwaysgrowing]

And if we weren't addicts, we wouldn't push our bodies as we do in the gym.

[the art of war]

Finding a balance is huge for me bro - when it comes to the gym, deadlifts squats ... if i don't puke or get spins i really will be pissed ... but in life in general, I tend to take everything to max - I've had to reshape driving, fighting, and obviously drugs.. now taking pleasure in what life offers is as if it never had existed, first time through.

[alwaysgrowing]

Finding a balance is huge for me bro - when it comes to the gym, deadlifts squats ... if i don't puke or get spins i really will be pissed ... but in life in general, I tend to take everything to max - I've had to reshape driving, fighting, and obviously drugs.. now taking pleasure in what life offers is as if it never had existed, first time through.

Balance is tough. I still go balls to the walls for a few months at a time and then crash for a weekend.

[ROCKETW19]

ROCKET - you're a fighter, I better not hear you bitching about props cuz I respect the shit out of what you do day in day out my brother :D

No worries her bro I dont need thanks or props. :thumup:

[CrankinSteiN]

I agree with rocket.... the open thanks to the board was enough for me... And I have been in a similar situation and coming back to the boards was a huge help for me to get away from a bad life and get back to bodybuilding as well...

[the art of war]

I agree with rocket.... the open thanks to the board was enough for me... And I have been in a similar situation and coming back to the boards was a huge help for me to get away from a bad life and get back to bodybuilding as well...

it's hard for me to even see people I used to kick it with now, used to be hard to stay away, now I swear I am dialed and when I know that each day is a chance at getting bigger stronger and better overall - I cannot see the appeal anymore. I keep people close enough to know the signs if i was to start to be a fuckhead (I don't do "relapse" "slip" - it's up to me, my choice) so I have security both in my own will power (finally) and the fact that those around me will report me asap if I start to show a sign. I also have weekly drug tests with my recruiter.

[the art of war]

This is exactly why having goals and being dedicated is why I made this post. The people / board I give props to show: it's friday night, I have one sober solid friend, he's out cold from working 14 hour days - everyone else is out and about doing there thing, and I am just doing my thing here, it's a hard adjustment but one that had to happen and regardless I will accept thats how it goes. Cutting the ties is the hardest for me, luckily got a girl lined up tomorrow night see how that goes.

[Mr I]

I'm no angel - and often quite stubborn. I feel I owe this board an awful lot. When I posted again I was coming from a life with no goals, no motivation, honestly just another apathetic junkie. Labels are true until broken, with the help of members here I'm away from a life that would've surely landed me in jail or dead. I want to openly thank Bouncer, you're a stubborn fuck like me, and that has been good for me. Bigscott - taking my texts at fucking 6am because I want to make sure I get enough carbs lol - there are tons of members here i am friends with but I am keeping this simple. Rado - I said it in private, I'll say it openly, I listened to the wrong people and I talked shit - I apologize. I hope to see FitnessBratt back - she is a great friend. Life flies by and bueller had it right, you can miss it real easy. Thanks guys.

MrI - My dual citizen brother, you secretly are 007 I know it, I accept it. You're a good dude.

Your always welcome here bro, your a nice guy and you bring a very original perspective to these discussions. While some of those things you did previously wern't clever its your previous experiences, struggles and journey through life that make you who you are and you are quite an interesting guy.

[Mr I]

This is exactly why having goals and being dedicated is why I made this post. The people / board I give props to show: it's friday night, I have one sober solid friend, he's out cold from working 14 hour days - everyone else is out and about doing there thing, and I am just doing my thing here, it's a hard adjustment but one that had to happen and regardless I will accept thats how it goes. Cutting the ties is the hardest for me, luckily got a girl lined up tomorrow night see how that goes.

you have to cut ties sometimes don't feel bad about it.

[the art of war]

you have to cut ties sometimes don't feel bad about it.

true that bro, i wouldn't be up for am cardio if i had been hangin with my old friends, can tell you that much!