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I will post this on here because every member needs to know the consequences of benzodiazepines(benzos).. I been off and on these drugs for about 10 years now.. And I been on every benzo name you can think of.. I tried them all except for librium one of the oldest benzos...
The most effective benzos I have encountered was Xanax and Valium.. Xanax attacks the anxiety/panic attacks very very fast.. While valium is a longer acting benzo with a half life of 20-100hours... Yes.. 100 fucking 100 hours.. So what does this mean?.. even with the lowest dose you are building up a tolerance without even knowing..
Now most of y'all know I have a mental disorder and these are the reasons I was on benzos and SSRI/SNRI and even an anti-psychotic(seroquel) which put me in a mental clinic due to tearing the apartment up... I kicked those for a couple years now, but decided to keep the benzo around because I found it as a wonder drug for anxiety, aggression, paranoia and what not....
I was benzo free for about a year and I felt great, but first I went on a spiral before I got better... I went through hell and back, but manage to get off the Xanax with the switch over to valium with a very slow taper that lasted about 6 months... My dosage would range from 20 mg of liquid valium.. enough to put a horse out, but when u build a tolerance the effects do no work anymore...
Fast forward to last October when I found out about my herniated disc I was on muscle relaxer and was told by the orthopedic to take 5mgs of valium... Now 5mgs to me is a pussy dose.. I can take this dosage and function like it's nothing.. , but I decided to cut the pill in half and just take 2.5mg a day... then month come and I'm up to a whole pill cause I no longer feel the effects....remeber what I said about the half life being 20-100hours?.. Yea it has come as I'm going through these withdrawals again.. been noticing this for the past week now....im going through this withdrawals because I'm not upping my valium dose... Pretty much my gabba receptors are asking for more.. if I up this dose the longer I have to taper
So let's talk about my symptoms..
Now these symptoms do not happen while at the gym...
VERY SEVERE Depersonalisation/derealisation. It no longer seems that anything around me is real life. It doesn't feel like reality. Without a doubt the most annoying symptom.*
Agitated
Anxious
Feels like you about to fall on your face
Insomnia (yea I can't sleep for shit) not even on growth
Increase agression(One reason why I lower my test dose)
Manic and suicidal thoughts, but I don't think about ended my life...
I got appointment with the psychiatrist on Tuesday and will discuss the Taper process and get on liquid valium as it's easier to taper... which would be 10 percent cut every 2 weeks
Once I pass this hell.. I will never touch a benzo again... If I would of known from the start I would of just smoke weed...
So with that being said... if you going to get on benzos.. think about the consequences as I'm a living proof of it..
I'm sure people have similar expereice but are to afraid to speak out...
You think these drugs are a savior but they are not.. they the devils poison...
If anyone have same experience and struggling you are more than welcome to PM me and I can give advice..
This shit ain't living!!
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The most effective benzos I have encountered was Xanax and Valium.. Xanax attacks the anxiety/panic attacks very very fast.. While valium is a longer acting benzo with a half life of 20-100hours... Yes.. 100 fucking 100 hours.. So what does this mean?.. even with the lowest dose you are building up a tolerance without even knowing..
Now most of y'all know I have a mental disorder and these are the reasons I was on benzos and SSRI/SNRI and even an anti-psychotic(seroquel) which put me in a mental clinic due to tearing the apartment up... I kicked those for a couple years now, but decided to keep the benzo around because I found it as a wonder drug for anxiety, aggression, paranoia and what not....
I was benzo free for about a year and I felt great, but first I went on a spiral before I got better... I went through hell and back, but manage to get off the Xanax with the switch over to valium with a very slow taper that lasted about 6 months... My dosage would range from 20 mg of liquid valium.. enough to put a horse out, but when u build a tolerance the effects do no work anymore...
Fast forward to last October when I found out about my herniated disc I was on muscle relaxer and was told by the orthopedic to take 5mgs of valium... Now 5mgs to me is a pussy dose.. I can take this dosage and function like it's nothing.. , but I decided to cut the pill in half and just take 2.5mg a day... then month come and I'm up to a whole pill cause I no longer feel the effects....remeber what I said about the half life being 20-100hours?.. Yea it has come as I'm going through these withdrawals again.. been noticing this for the past week now....im going through this withdrawals because I'm not upping my valium dose... Pretty much my gabba receptors are asking for more.. if I up this dose the longer I have to taper
So let's talk about my symptoms..
Now these symptoms do not happen while at the gym...
VERY SEVERE Depersonalisation/derealisation. It no longer seems that anything around me is real life. It doesn't feel like reality. Without a doubt the most annoying symptom.*
Agitated
Anxious
Feels like you about to fall on your face
Insomnia (yea I can't sleep for shit) not even on growth
Increase agression(One reason why I lower my test dose)
Manic and suicidal thoughts, but I don't think about ended my life...
I got appointment with the psychiatrist on Tuesday and will discuss the Taper process and get on liquid valium as it's easier to taper... which would be 10 percent cut every 2 weeks
Once I pass this hell.. I will never touch a benzo again... If I would of known from the start I would of just smoke weed...
So with that being said... if you going to get on benzos.. think about the consequences as I'm a living proof of it..
I'm sure people have similar expereice but are to afraid to speak out...
You think these drugs are a savior but they are not.. they the devils poison...
If anyone have same experience and struggling you are more than welcome to PM me and I can give advice..
This shit ain't living!!
Sent from my SM-G950F using Tapatalk
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