Done with powerlifting

[3v1lj03]

I have trained twice for months increasing strength and concentrating on the big three for two power lifting comps and both were canceled this is the second time this has happened to me. I found out about 3 weeks before my final strength peaking week and was on track to meet my goals of 1300 lbs combined lift at 197 lbs weight class. I have been energized and positive since I started the strength training in April and since I found out of the cancellation I am dejected and unfocused. I feel like the only thing I have to show for two rounds of power lifting training is an injured knee and a torn rotator cuff. I don't mean to sound like I am whining I just wanted to tell you guys how I feel about this.

So I am coming back to BB if it will have me back I am pretty lean right now because of my weight class goals and I look good according to all the stares I get and my wife says I am a freak. I don't know what my goals are yet exactly except to get focused again in the gym and shake off this depression.
Any inspiration or advice on setting goals would be appreciated. Thanks for reading my rant.

[Shibby]

You first need to mentally refresh. I know you probably don't want to just take a break completely, so try something different. A sport, a cardio program, mountain biking, hiking... something to keep you going but not with weights as the bulk of it.

[Mr I]

you haven't done your body any harm with the powerlifting, if anything you've improved your base so take it as a positive and move on

[Bouncer]

you haven't done your body any harm with the powerlifting

well except for the messed up knee and torn rotator. lmao.