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I am so glad I found this site. I finally registered after reading through the posts for the last 3 days. It's nice to know I'm not f***in crazy in my quest for my ideal phisique.
I was training for my first figure show a couple of months ago. I went to visit my frinds uncle who is a head judge at the pro level for a critique, who is a very harsh critic about these things. I was soooooo nervous. I couldn't believe his response when he told me ''you won''. This might sound real cocky and thats why I dont tell anyone this story but I have nothing to gain by saying this. Anyway, I couldn't believe it , afterall , there is always room for improvement especially in this sport AND how can he be so sure to say I won, I mean give me a break! and that's what I SAID! After my friend again told me of his uncle's status and he also couldn't believe he was certain of me I felt really good.
I have been training for like 7-8yrs. I never wanted to do a show before because I knew the dedication, time and some of the suffering that comes with it and didn't think a little trophy was worth it all. I decided to finally compete to stop me from bingeing which was ruining my life. I needed something to strive for.
My biggest regret was going there that day. I wished he would have never said that. I had 7 weeks left and was done. I immiediatley went home and thought I would reward myself with a favorite binge food, that I was ACTUALLY having dreams about!!
It was over after that, I swear I couldn't stop myself from bingeing. I kept saying tomorow I'll get back on track and before I knew it, it was too late I had set myself back way too far and there was no way I was going to allow myself to step on stage. I fell into a deep depression wathching myself as I had undone all my hard work.
But, reading through all your posts has helped to motivate me and remind me I'm not alone. So, just wanted to say Thank You to everybody for giving me the boost I needed.
I'm looking foward to being an active participant.
I was training for my first figure show a couple of months ago. I went to visit my frinds uncle who is a head judge at the pro level for a critique, who is a very harsh critic about these things. I was soooooo nervous. I couldn't believe his response when he told me ''you won''. This might sound real cocky and thats why I dont tell anyone this story but I have nothing to gain by saying this. Anyway, I couldn't believe it , afterall , there is always room for improvement especially in this sport AND how can he be so sure to say I won, I mean give me a break! and that's what I SAID! After my friend again told me of his uncle's status and he also couldn't believe he was certain of me I felt really good.
I have been training for like 7-8yrs. I never wanted to do a show before because I knew the dedication, time and some of the suffering that comes with it and didn't think a little trophy was worth it all. I decided to finally compete to stop me from bingeing which was ruining my life. I needed something to strive for.
My biggest regret was going there that day. I wished he would have never said that. I had 7 weeks left and was done. I immiediatley went home and thought I would reward myself with a favorite binge food, that I was ACTUALLY having dreams about!!
It was over after that, I swear I couldn't stop myself from bingeing. I kept saying tomorow I'll get back on track and before I knew it, it was too late I had set myself back way too far and there was no way I was going to allow myself to step on stage. I fell into a deep depression wathching myself as I had undone all my hard work.
But, reading through all your posts has helped to motivate me and remind me I'm not alone. So, just wanted to say Thank You to everybody for giving me the boost I needed.
I'm looking foward to being an active participant.
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