My name is GS, and I'm an Anabolic Freak

[G-S]

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[RUI-Products]

Amen ..I hear you brotherman .......It happens to the best of us
......I've been going in the other direction for a few months ....I even got Married .......I don't see the inside of the GYm enough ...Im Going on Vacation today. I will start my new training schedule this weekend......We wil see if I go hard this time or not. I can't go back on for a while.......Funny how we think isn't it.
Diet ......Check
gym clothes ...check
#$%^.........Check

Well have a good weekend and go spend time with your kids.........Talk at you soon

[the_inkslinger]

Hey man thats deep .. and im glad you posted it ... spoke from the heart .

Did you ever think of just going to see someone ? Talk out what kind of insecurities you may have ? WHY you NEED to be BIGGER and STRONGER than everyone ...

Personally... I usually do things that are unorthodox on my cycles.. I will take a week off mid cycle and just do something I like ... play hockey...play golf..video games..relax at the beach.. whatever.. WITHOUT going to the gym AT ALL .... alo t of my close bros flame me but I feel like I get obessed too easily.. I have also noticed I grow ALOT better since I Started doing that, I guess I really let myself relax and heal and grow while I rest.

Time to do some soul searching brother. I hope you find the urges to do the things you love to do OTHER then working out .. Especially if you have a family that loves you. Take care Bro

inkslinger

[Gort]

You know it really means something that you can admit this.

Dont freak, but have you considered going to NA meetings?

[majoradams]

This happens to alot of bodybuilders at some stage.

For me, the fear of failing is worse than any side effect, when i feel like im growing, nothing, absolutley nothing compares to it. I know this is an addiction, but you need to get your priorities straight. What did i set out to acheive, can i ever be truly happy if i never acheive it.

I have heard some guys say they dont want to be close to anyone or anything, except their training partners. I question how far i want to take this, i have a partner in life and hopfully a family someday but the flip side is i think it would hold me back from acheiving what i want. I guess it comes down to what you want out of life

[Bouncer]

Great post and I know what you mean. This is a bodybuilders life. Im sure you have seen pumping iron, Arnold became cold. He didnt even go to his fathers funeral because he had the Olympia comming up.

We demand perfection every minute of the day from our bodies and it really makes everything else comes second.

[Greyphantom]

Know exactly what you mean mate... here is something I have posted on other sites and now this one... Hi there all... well I have been training now for a few years (about 16 or so) and while the first 5 or thereabouts were mainly for fitness the rest have been about gaining weight and strength... in essence bbing... I had a bit of a dream of reaching 120kg at 12%ish but have now come to a decision that I am pretty happy with 112kg and just need to maintain that while getting by bf levels down... it certainly doesnt mean I wont go to the gym any more (thats in my genes) and will not mean that I wont run just one or two more very basic cycles but for now I am working at maintaining body weight and increasing skills in other areas... so there you have it... a bit of a life decision really.. not going to go all out for size and mass but will start to train slightly differently working on endurance and strength... who knows this may kick me up a gear and I may get a few extra kgs out of it...lol as you can see the lure of a few more kgs hasnt completely left me... thanks all for reading...

Cheers...

soon as I decided that normal life seemed incredibly busy... got heaps done around the house and a whole garden rebuilt... good luck with your journey...

[blm]

That post holds a lot of weight coming from someome like you GS...nice post.

[redneck99]

That's an inspiration. Thanks for the honset, personal advice. Good luck in all that you do bro.

[beefcake]

That one hits home buddy. I used to be so into my car, every penny went into a new part. Ever since I started training, every damn penny goes to anabolics, food, and gym fees. And now i'm trying to spend more bread to build a home gym. I wake up in the morning and think about eating and what i'll be doing at the gym later in the day. Is it a sickness, I think so, but I like it. :agree:

[bonebreaker]

Great post. I have felt that way many times, even before I started using AAS. I think there is a basic trend among bodybuilders that they are somewhat insecure because of their initial size b4 starting, and for alot, it becomes an obsession, with or without gear. When someone comes up to you and says, "man you look great, I wish I had those arms, chest, or whatever", it pumps you up and makes your head swell a bit. So, you start doing more to be noticed more, especially noticing yourself. Most of us are a bit narcistic anyway. Many guys, and girls, like us, look in the mirror and see ourselves as too small, while everyone else sees us as much bigger. Truth be known, many bodybuilders will never be big enough to suit themselves. BB

[Keiser]

Good Post. I can relate, I got in deep for awhile but I snapped out of it and went back to the things in life I enjoy. I still work out, but i'm not obsessed with it anymore.

[meat12]

great post bro, hope things get better for ya. good luck

[prodigy411]

I agree GS,..thanks for sharing! I think we all, to some degree, go through something like that whether we choose to admit it or not.

Take care bro!!!

" Its always easier to make great strides, than to make small advances..."

[drgoodbody]

Great post G-S, very insightful and a little unsettling.

I think in part it has to do with whether a person has an "addictive personality" or not. Some people become immersed in things (e.g. BB) to the point of obsession, others can partake in the same thing and enjoy it but never get that level of intensity about it.

Every person makes decisions, either consciously or not, that effect there lives. You chose to do this, you have either consciously or not decided to drop other things, and you ultimately have the ability to change this.

This doesn't mean dumping the gym, AAS, etc... what it means is moderating it and being less obsessed (easy to say, hard to do). Think about it, anything taken to the obsessive level is ultimately self destructive. Dial it back a couple notches bro, and your life will be more balanced and much better.

DrG