My name is GS, and I'm an Anabolic Freak

[joe bigboy]

i know exactly what you mean G-S, bodybuilding totally took over my life a few years ago too. like you the vast majority of the friends i had from earlier i lost touch with em. i never thought anything could take over my life the way that bodybuilding has. i mean from the time i get up til i go to bed its all i think about. my parents have always supported my lifestyle, i think alot of that is because my dads brother was a pro athlete at one time and he understands the discipline and sacrifices that are made when you are serious about a sport or anything for that matter. i've always believed that if i don't give something 100% then it's not worth me doing at all. i think that to get the most out of yourself with whatever it is that your doing then you gotta be "obsessed" with it.

[njlovehandles]

gs great post, nice 2 see some of us still have hearts. i have never used aas but i feel just as the rest of you guys do. if a diets not going right or work is to busy to even get to the gym, or some days you just feel small. it fucks you up. sometimes i dont even want to leave the house cause i might c someone and i might have been bigger or leaner last time i saw them. i guess thats why we do this, insecurity,

i feel for you guys w the great grandfathers. same story hear pops left real early and my grandfather was basiclay my dad. he is, and always will be my main role model in life.

Bouncer, i think arnold was joking when he says that he didnt go to his fathers funeral. in the out-takes he states that he had heard that story about another bb'r so he thought it would add to the doucu-drama. i think ill got watch it right now- i love pumping iron.

[house1]

I continually beat myself up over the fact that somewhere, in some gym, there is someone that is stronger, and more intimidating than I.

that would be me:D

great post bro and very true -- i am not as bad as i used to be -- took almost losing my family to wake me up a bit-

i still schedule everything around the gym but i take a couple days off from it to spend time with my family-

if you ever dust that bow off -- look me up -- its one thing i still enjoy -- gives me time to think -- and i love deermeat

[majoradams]

Perpetual devotion to any goal, be it a sport, a business or art can only be sustained by perpetual neglect of many other things.

[G-S]

Great thread guys. Thanks for sharing your thoughts on this subject.

[INTIMID8OR]

Awesome thread and great post G-S ;)

[bigpetefox]

Good read, brother! :)

[BigDaddy22]

Outstanding post bro, very deep and tells it how it is

[addict]

Re: My name is GS, and I'm an Anabolic Freak

Originally posted by G-S
Originally posted at AnabolicFreakz by myself

Thought I would address a topic that I think many of us battle with, yet I've never seen anyone talk about it.

When I began serious weight training, some 7+ years ago, I had many hobbies, and many things I enjoyed doing.

I was an avid hunter, loved camping, and loved the outdoors. I was one of the biggest sports nuts you would ever find, and I spent the majority of my time honing my fantasy football skills. I kept in close contact with the majority of my "good" buds that I grew up with. Spoke to them often, and always hung out with them and their wives, and kids, etc.

In the year 2000, things began to change. Ive never admitted it to anyone, not even my wife, but I think they have changed for the worse. Things I used to enjoy mean nothing to me now. I haven't pulled my bow out and went deer hunting in 3 years. I've spent less and less time in the woods since I started using AAS. I've began to care less and less if I see an old buddy or not. I tend to get an attitude now and again that makes it not very fun to be around. I don't speak to my parents NEAR as much as I used to. I don't like to be inconvinenced by anyone, not even my own kids.

Why?

The only thing that seems important to me now is my own body, and how big and strong I can be. I wake up, walk right to the bathroom, and look in the mirror. I plan cycles that I'll never do. I continually beat myself up over the fact that somewhere, in some gym, there is someone that is stronger, and more intimidating than I.

When I first got into this, I said "20lbs is all I want". That was countless amounts of gear ago, and I'm still not where I think I should be. I'm not shy to admit it, but this AAS use, and weight training has consumed my life, and is driving away those who care about me most.

I need to make changes. Not sure how, not sure when. But I do need to change.

No, I'm not going anywhere. Even if I ever did go clean, I'd still be here to support my brothers and sisters in the iron game. But, I just wanted to lay this on the line, in hopes that those newbies who get into this with the mind set that they can get where they want - it most likely won't happen.

There are more important things in life than this - we all know that. So if you are new, don't let the same things happen to you that have happened to me. Because if I sat here and told you that AAS use is NOT addictive, I'd be a liar. I'm living proof.

Sincerely - GS

Reading that scared me because im exactly the same. you dont realise your doing it till one day you sit there and think were has everyone gone.

[therock]

I am the same way brother. My goal was to go from 150lbs at 5'9'' to 180lbs. Now I am 190lbs and want to be around 220lbs and maybe more. I just want to be the best at what I do even if I have to let everything else go. I also do Judo and those 2 together I have no time for anything else. My schedule everyday is eat 5-6 times daily wake up go to work, go to the gym and then take my protien shake and then go to bed. On the 2 days that I dont work a week I am still eating and resting thats all, I might take my girl to the movies or something simple that doesnt reqiure a lot of energy. I like to rest on my rest days so with that and my workout days I have no time for anyone. The only reason me and my girl have time together is because we live together. I even sometimes find myself getting mad at everything in fact it has been like that for the past 2 months. I hate when someone calls me on the phone and I am busy I tend to yell and scream at my friends for the stupidist thing. Its like the AAS consumes me. I would want to be on year long but I know that would only hurt me. I also sometimes feel like starting a month before I am suppose to. Its an addiction and I hate it but love it in the same time!

[therock]

This is a good read so I am bumping it up to the top. Also if you havent juiced yet I hope you take this in consideration!

[powerlord]

I'm new here but I thought I'd add something anyway.I spent over 20 years as a hard drug user,tearing my body down and trying my best to end my own life ,in and out of jail,didn't care about my family or anyone else for that matter,just the drug,it was a degrading lifestyle and hopeless,I had resigned myself to a life of crime and addiction,and then a little over 3 1/2 years ago my life changed,I watched a bodybuilder lifting in a gym and I talked with him for awhile,he didn't lie and told me he took roids to get where he was at,which in my eyes was phenominal,I then started studying what I had been doing and what he had done and started comparing the lifestyles and their meanings,mine was a total opposite of what he had done,he had a family,they had their problems,almost all do.But he bettered himself physically,and mentally,he wasn't doing the teardown I did ,so now 3 years later I find myself at the point where he was,my mind has never been more clear,my physical being has never been this healthy and I love God and my family,I guess what I'm trying to say is that Bodybuilding took me out of a life of destruction and eventually death,a human can get hooked on anything and make it their sole reason for being,you can be a caffeine and cigarette freak and let it overshadow all,until I took God into my life nothing made sense,now it does,even as I travel through the bodybuilding lifestyle,with it's good and bad,at least I'm not doing what I did before i found it,you could be hooked on someting way worse,I know.So don't be to hard on yourself bro,there can be a happy medium to your life,just open your heart to other possibilities,God Bless G S

[Bouncer]

This has turned into one hell of a thread. One of the best.

[Severedties]

Originally posted by THE BOUNCER
This has turned into one hell of a thread. One of the best.

Agreed.

[Severedties]

The level of dedication or obsession, which it may be called, to do well in this sport is huge. It is a requirement that you be in it wholeheartedly for you to advance at the pace you wish. Once you reach that pace, and your initial goal, you are never the same. You are always wanting more, and once you see how much progress is possible with complete dedication it is impossible to look back. One will never be satisfied with the mediocrity that one gets with half effort and half dedication. If you are only half into your diet you will get nothing, if you miss half your workouts you get nothing.

I see where yall are coming from about how at a certian point is detrimental. But you all must see that in order to have gotten where you are, it was absolutely required. I being as new to the game as i am, and in awe by your dedication and aspire to follow it every day. When i eat each meal, i think that there are many other people who are choking down more food, and who are lifting much more weight. People who are not taking a rest day, and people who are researching what they could be doing to improve their bodybuilding lifestyle.

I just wanted to tell you that i am immensely impressed by the sacrifices everyone here has made, and I plan to continue to do the same. Goals must be paid for with something. If it were that easy, everyone would look perfect.