Well, after my first cycle, I am now a month removed from the 200mg Test Cyp / 100mg Test Prop / 200mg Deca / 37.5mg Anavar I was taking each day. I started hGH 3iu right after (I know I wish I started 3 months ago - bad timing) and am taking HCG, Tamox, Clo, and Anastrozole - which wraps up Monday.
Results - FUCKING ABYSMAL.
No sex drive.
Dropping weight (water/muscle) gained some fat - although fat is now coming off. Diet stayed consistent - spot on 50/30/20 Macro split.
No sex drive.
Lack of motivation.
No sex drive.
Feelings of sadness/depression from watching a fucking Pepsi commercial.
No sex drive.
Pumps evaporate 1 hour after workout.
No sex drive.
I'm 220 (was 237 on Oct 31) 5'10" at 13% BF (BF went UP as I was losing weight/size to 14% now coming down prob HCG?).
My strength has stayed the same.
I am not a happy person. I have 4-5 weeks starting on Monday to go clean with no anything to allow everything to stabilize. Next cycle scheduled to start Jan 16.
Question: If this is going to get worse, I'm out. I want back on and I will just freeze some of my stuff (I'm 40. I want to maybe have 1 more child in a few years.) and resume. If I just want one more cycle to get back to where I was and a little bit (like to be 235 @ 10-12%) then cruise after that - if done responsibly are than any longterm effects to staying on TRT other than the obvious natural test shutdown? Liver/cholesterol issues? Etc?
Results - FUCKING ABYSMAL.
No sex drive.
Dropping weight (water/muscle) gained some fat - although fat is now coming off. Diet stayed consistent - spot on 50/30/20 Macro split.
No sex drive.
Lack of motivation.
No sex drive.
Feelings of sadness/depression from watching a fucking Pepsi commercial.
No sex drive.
Pumps evaporate 1 hour after workout.
No sex drive.
I'm 220 (was 237 on Oct 31) 5'10" at 13% BF (BF went UP as I was losing weight/size to 14% now coming down prob HCG?).
My strength has stayed the same.
I am not a happy person. I have 4-5 weeks starting on Monday to go clean with no anything to allow everything to stabilize. Next cycle scheduled to start Jan 16.
Question: If this is going to get worse, I'm out. I want back on and I will just freeze some of my stuff (I'm 40. I want to maybe have 1 more child in a few years.) and resume. If I just want one more cycle to get back to where I was and a little bit (like to be 235 @ 10-12%) then cruise after that - if done responsibly are than any longterm effects to staying on TRT other than the obvious natural test shutdown? Liver/cholesterol issues? Etc?
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