i will not compete anymore ! few reasons . biggest being on verge of divorce right now and want to keep my family whole .. i let my ego and the needs of others take front row over my wife and family in the last few years .. hoping its not too late i love my wife and will be my greatest loss if we part
i was helping people i shouldn't be and will help no one unless they pay me from this point forward ..
also .. the line you have to walk to get ready for a national level show . basic gear is the smallest issue !!! the diuretics and absolute dehydration .. the insulin etc etc etc .. its hell !!! judges want you dryer .. shredded glutes etc etc imo not worth it
i no longer enjoy the gym .. it took the enjoyment of training away ... made it more like a job !!! so going back to just pure training to be big and happy . will keep myself in shape 270 .. 280 lbs lean is what i will look to maintain
the politics ... so tired of seeing guys get passed over that deserve it for those that don't because who they know or where they train ..
going back to try and find the guy i was not the guy i have become .. i have turned into nothing but an asshole .. hurt many of the people i care for most in this shit hole we call life ..
breaking someone i care about more then anything in this worlds heart opened my eyes .. fucking shame it took that to get me to pull my head out of my ass .. a regret i will carry with me for the rest of my life ..
bodybuilding is a very selfish sport and if you let it suck you in completely you become just as selfish
i was helping people i shouldn't be and will help no one unless they pay me from this point forward ..
also .. the line you have to walk to get ready for a national level show . basic gear is the smallest issue !!! the diuretics and absolute dehydration .. the insulin etc etc etc .. its hell !!! judges want you dryer .. shredded glutes etc etc imo not worth it
i no longer enjoy the gym .. it took the enjoyment of training away ... made it more like a job !!! so going back to just pure training to be big and happy . will keep myself in shape 270 .. 280 lbs lean is what i will look to maintain
the politics ... so tired of seeing guys get passed over that deserve it for those that don't because who they know or where they train ..
going back to try and find the guy i was not the guy i have become .. i have turned into nothing but an asshole .. hurt many of the people i care for most in this shit hole we call life ..
breaking someone i care about more then anything in this worlds heart opened my eyes .. fucking shame it took that to get me to pull my head out of my ass .. a regret i will carry with me for the rest of my life ..
bodybuilding is a very selfish sport and if you let it suck you in completely you become just as selfish
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