Kid kills himself live on a webcam on BB.com

[Bouncer]

cliff notes.

- CandyJunkie creates thread telling Misc. he'll overdose himself again on drugs live on Justin.tv
- CandyJunkie posts the amount of drugs he's going to take
- Mods don't take it seriously
- People egg him on
- CandyJunkie posts a copied suicide note
- People keep egging him on
- He pops the pills and goes to sleep
- He breathes for a few hours, people think he's going to be alright and keep joking and trash talking on his JTV log.
- Some time later many people realize he was not moving.
- Personal details posted on Misc. by a concerned misc. request people to call the cops.
- People tell me he's a troll and nobody calls. Staberella especially is quite a huge cynic and says that he wasn't going to die on that kind of drugs, she insists nothing is going to happen and that people should just gtfo of the thread.
-Miami Police called, the people there do not take the case seriously and tell to call the sheriff of his county, and give me the sheriff's number.
- post the sheriff's number on the Misc. thread
-jjlee138 calls the Broward County Sheriff's office and speaks to them about the situation along with a couple of other people. By the time I called, it turns out 3 people had already called them about it.
- People wait for the cops to bust in on the JTV cam.
- Some people start thinking nobody called the cops, at least 5 more people call the cops, they were told the cops were on it
- 25 minutes after the first call to the cops, the cops bust in. They cover the webcam
- People speculating whether he's dead or not
- At this point of time a lot of people start deleting/editing their posts everywhere.
- Friends post messages on his myspace worried about him, no response from him.
- His best friend posts a thread on the Misc. and informs the people that he's dead.

[NewbieChris]

This is all very confusing. There is no resoning behind him killing himself? And I hope this starbella character isn't a mod.

[blm]

Supposedly the note....



To Whom It May Concern,
I am going to leave this for whoever stumbles across my bookmarks later on.
I hate myself and I hate living. I think that if someone who knows me
reads this they will know who I am. So I will leave this unsigned. I am
an a@#hole. I have let everyone down and I feel as though I will never
change or never improve. I am in love with a girl and I know that I am
not good enough for her. I have come
to believe that my life has all been meaningless. I keep trying and I
keep failing. I have thought about and attempted suicide many times in
the past. I used to think of my failure as some mystical way of telling
me that I was really meant for something meaningful. The only thing I
dread, besides the pain, is the way my family will suffer. I do not want
my mother or father to think that it was anything they did that lead me
to kill myself. I never really had any plans of leaving a note. I
thought that I would not be able to describe why I want to do this and I
am right. There is no way to tell you or anyone else why I dread every
new day. My father had such high expectations for me and tried to give
me every opportunity to improve upon myself. I let him down. I think
that I am a major disappointment to him. I have a job but I?m always broke
and I am in college but barely, I show up to class but that?s about it.
I want my life to end. I am tired of f@#$ing up everything. I
am tired of people always telling me that they do not like me. I am
tired of trying to be decent. I hope that someone finds this post and I
hope that my parents know that I f@#$ed up not them. It is my fault I
screwed up my own life.
The hate that rages within me, rages not for those I love so dearly or
those who have crossed my path.
This hate rages full force towards me and only me.
I have long forgiven those who've hurt me, but I have not and cannot
come to terms to forgive myself for the things I have done to myself, and
the things I've done to hurt those in my life.
You have all touched my life in one way or another,
especially those whom I call family.
I cannot tell you how sorry I am for ending my life the way I did. I
hope that you can all find it in your heart to see it as way for me not
suffering anymore and that I am finally at rest with myself, for being at
rest with the guilt that constantly ate at me for so long.
Please forgive me all for taking my own life so early. I tried so hard
to fight against this strong battle. I have reached out for help so many
times, and yet I believe, I was turned away because of the things I did,
that it is a punishment I am willing to take, for I know that being who I am
has only brought myself and others pain.
I love you all and will forever live within the memories we created.
Forgive me.
Love always and forever,
As for my signature I will leave you with a quote so that if anyone
reads this they will know it's me, "Can?t feel pain if your dead? Just Saying"

[redback]

Weak

[mindstar]

i don't know man. It's easy to think that suicide is the coward's way out, and I do tend to agree that it is an inherently selfish act, but I do feel sorry for someone who feels so badly that they see no point in going on. Because I've never truly known what that feels like, I won't judge.

Shitty situation, for sure.

[NewbieChris]

Until we hear something official I have my doubts however I believe what he did was wrong and crazy. I mean I have been pretty disappointed win myself before but commuting suicide has and will always be a huge step from self disappointment. I really think it sucks that he felt the need to do this. It says a lot about a society that we can't progress beyond it.

[blm]

i don't know man. It's easy to think that suicide is the coward's way out, and I do tend to agree that it is an inherently selfish act, but I do feel sorry for someone who feels so badly that they see no point in going on. Because I've never truly known what that feels like, I won't judge.

Shitty situation, for sure.

Agreed.

[FitnessBrat]

Anyway to know if this is true, etc? And what's BB.com or Justin.tv?

[blm]

Anyway to know if this is true, etc? And what's BB.com or Justin.tv?

It appears to be true. When I found that note there were also pictures of the cops in the bedroom, but they've been removed.

[FitnessBrat]

Until you know what it feels like to think you'd be better off not waking tomorrow, then I don't think you can judge. I think this kid was screaming for attention and nobody was giving him what he needed. Maybe he "cried wolf" too many times, who knows - it's still unfortunate he didn't get the help he needed. But as tough as this board can be, I'd sure as hell like to think that our members would be more sensitive to a situation like that. I can't imagine the grief his family has to live with right now, with so many unanswered questions and guilt.

And to say that society can't progress beyond this makes little sense to me. Suicide isn't a fad - it's always been around, and it will always continue to be.

[Bouncer]

Until you know what it feels like to think you'd be better off not waking tomorrow, then I don't think you can judge. I think this kid was screaming for attention and nobody was giving him what he needed. Maybe he "cried wolf" too many times, who knows - it's still unfortunate he didn't get the help he needed. But as tough as this board can be, I'd sure as hell like to think that our members would be more sensitive to a situation like that. I can't imagine the grief his family has to live with right now, with so many unanswered questions and guilt.

And to say that society can't progress beyond this makes little sense to me. Suicide isn't a fad - it's always been around, and it will always continue to be.

agreed.

something i have worked on over the last few years is judging people. i try hard not to judge anyone.

[NewbieChris]

And to say that society can't progress beyond this makes little sense to me. Suicide isn't a fad - it's always been around, and it will always continue to be.

All while talking about sensitivity.

[Bouncer]

Horror as teenager commits suicide live online - Times Online

[blm]

A Florida teen who intentionally overdosed streamed his death on the Internet while it occurred Wednesday.
Others watched online as 19-year-old Abraham Biggs Jr. died. The Broward County Medical Examiner's Office told The Miami Herald that he took a deadly mixture of prescription drugs.

Media reports and comments on discussion boards -- including some posts from those who claimed to have witnessed the incident -- vary on whether Biggs actually ingested the drugs on camera. Accounts also vary as to whether people may have encouraged him to kill himself.
While some members of online discussion boards posted chat messages showing that at least one person encouraged Biggs, the timestamp and corresponding video archives seem to indicate that it was after Biggs fell unconscious or died.

Justin.tv, the forum where Biggs streamed the incident, has deleted video and the related string of comments. Other sites still hosted silent video Friday that showed Biggs lying motionless in a fetal position on his bed, with his back facing the camera, as police discovered the body and blocked the camera.

Several discussion board members posted conversations indicating that people on the live forum thought it was a hoax. Then, some members grew concerned that Biggs was really dead. Members of the discussion board tracked Biggs down, attempted to contact him, and then called police, according to discussion strings they posted on other sites.

Online acquaintances posted what they claimed to be a suicide note from Biggs' online account. One report stated that he posted the note on MySpace six days before he died. Others indicated that he cut and pasted the note onto discussion forums after he started a miscellaneous string to state that he had taken lethal amounts of prescription drugs.

Other people have streamed their suicides and plotted suicide with others online. Suicide is illegal in many places and those who attempt it but fail can face prosecution. Posting video of a suicide is not generally a criminal offense, although it violates terms of use on sites like Justin.tv, which ban inappropriate and violent content. However, that site and others like it rely on users to report inappropriate content, making it impossible in some cases to prevent live footage. In New York state, anyone who advises someone to commit suicide can be charged with manslaughter.

The Broward County Medical Examiner's Office confirmed in statements to The Miami Herald that Biggs blogged around 3 a.m. and at some point stated that he had taken lethal doses of prescription drugs and posted a link to his Webcam and told people they could watch live footage of his death. Pembroke Pines Police arrived around 3:30 p.m. They are continuing to investigate the incident.

[redsquirrel]

All while talking about sensitivity.

What does that mean? Explain to me how your comments were sensitive

Again, just based on your post you sometimes can come off really pompous and patronizing.

Listen, I understand you are really young, but you really need to learn to have empathy for people. You have no idea what that poor kid was going through to make him do that. Adolescence is one of the most difficult times in anyone's life. Just becuase you may not agree or have the capacity to understand how horrible someone thinks their life is, really doesn't warrant insensitivity.

True- suicide is extremely selfish. However, based on the poor kid's suicide note, there was very little hope from bringing him back from whatever had happened to him with all of the hate and rage that's in his letter. You weren't in his head. You didn't wake up everyday and feel completely useless and disappointed with your life, and feel you have no control in changing it.

Lastly, this has absolutely NOTHING to do with "society progressing passed this". WTF does this have to do with society??? The only thing society has to do with this kids death is the PRESSURE society creates. So, until society stops creating so much pressure, isn't it a little naive and unrealistic to say that society needs to move past it????