Checking in

[Shibby]

This shit does not ever seem to stop fucking with you both mentally and physically, driving me nuts atm... I understand the way these drugs work and weeks 3-4 can be a comedown for some, for others it's when the body is most ditached from the opiate and a fresh new set of symptoms like to creep in. Seems like the only thing that keeps going is the stubborn fuck off to the instant gratifcation that used to run my life.

Go get your mind occupied with something else. It's the feeling of boredom that can get your mind going where it shouldn't. Those mid-day lulls can be a killer.

[Bouncer]

art you live in the north east correct? how about taking a road trip up to North New York State/ Adirondacks / Vermont area.

we did it about 2 months ago. fucking beautiful up there. at one point in New York State and Vermont we did not see a car for like 45 minutes. beautiful mountains etc..

i know we are all different but man, road trips like that and seeing the open spaces, and scenery etc.. really puts me at piece. maybe it would do you good to do like a 3-4 days vacation up there. we stayed in a cabin up on a lake in the Adirondacks.. just awesome.

[the art of war]

Go get your mind occupied with something else. It's the feeling of boredom that can get your mind going where it shouldn't. Those mid-day lulls can be a killer.

It's odd, the afternoons are the best.. the mornings you wake up with that concept you should be going somewhere (clinic) or if nothing else taking something. I won't even begin to describe trying to get rest at night, I still make myself do low impact twice a day just to sweat as much shit out, still somehow doing a 3 day split and taking a shit ton of hot showers.. aside from that it's a mental crapshoot. Today is just one of those days where it's hittin hard I guess.

[Bouncer]

art you live in the north east correct? how about taking a road trip up to North New York State/ Adirondacks / Vermont area.

we did it about 2 months ago. fucking beautiful up there. at one point in New York State and Vermont we did not see a car for like 45 minutes. beautiful mountains etc..

i know we are all different but man, road trips like that and seeing the open spaces, and scenery etc.. really puts me at piece. maybe it would do you good to do like a 3-4 days vacation up there. we stayed in a cabin up on a lake in the Adirondacks.. just awesome.

bump ^

[the art of war]

I have a tues docs appointment, after that I am strongly considering what you are suggesting... might aswell feel shitty up in the middle of nowhere than back where it all started.

[Bouncer]

I have a tues docs appointment, after that I am strongly considering what you are suggesting... might aswell feel shitty up in the middle of nowhere than back where it all started.

and you might be surprised what happens to you around all that fresh air and nature etc..

not saying you will be a changed man but i bet it will give you a little boost.

maybe get a fishing rod and go fishing etc.. something maybe you haven't done since you were a kid.

i think it well help you to get out of that world of shit in your mind.

[the art of war]

I know a kid who lives in maine and we used to just go out there and rip around on his quads/dirtbikes - dudes married now but he's the type of bro that doesn't turn his back.. I'm gonna try to get in touch with him and set up something / place to go do wens - on.

[the art of war]

Made my reservations to go up to NH for a couple days, lil skeet shootin and some fresh ranges, lots of hiking around some amazing lakes in the area. I wish I could stay longer but I have to be back here fri morning so I'll just be able to be gone wens-thurs. That being said, between addiction and the clinic I don't believe I have been able sleep anywhere but my house for the last 3+ years, to me this is huge just to be able to go out and enjoy freedom. Gotta give props to B for bumping this again, wouldn't have thought about it or carried thru making reservations and mapping out the stuff to do if I hadn't had some good advice.

[the art of war]

Fully packed up with brown rice chicken tenders n some good ol beef jerkey. Only gonna be a couple days but I'm leaving after my 9:15 docs tomorrow, cannot wait. Fresh air and shooting ranges here I come.

[FitnessBrat]

Sounds good - have a relaxing time.

[the art of war]

Sounds good - have a relaxing time.

thx, only couple hours till docs then its up to the crazy rednecks.

*btw The Strangers were on at like 5am on HBO LoL, I normally am asleep 10-2ish so I have opportunity to either watch a shitload of skinemax or just browse around, I was very glad to see it again, nice reminder when you are going to the middle of nowhere :D!*

[the art of war]

500 posts later - I sleep 6-8 hours everynight now, no more need for immodium, only symptoms I feel now are just generally being more tired (yawning more than normal) and still get the runny nose / sneezes sometimes. Everything turned physically going up to NH - that shit was much needed even though it was short. Stopped harping on my mind saying this and that and realized the worst had finally passed physically and from this point on I wouldn't post or bitch about it until I could get back my old lifting routine and I knew my life was back in my own hands. 2mile am / pm cardio low impact outside on this dirt path - still trying to find my split for lifting, I can tell you this much - having a good base and eating right has sold me on how to live my life from this point on. That and deadlifts are my reason to exist haha. Thanks for the support, some of the hardest shit I ever have gone thru. I'll openly answer anything, if you ever find yourself in a position w/rec drugs and you don't want it out in the open PM me, this board did more for me than I can put in words, I'd like to be able to give back.

[FitnessBrat]

Excellent!! Love to hear that! :thumup:

Thanks for sharing your story :)