thats a hard one to answer since i was suppose to die and beat the docs odds -- i knew i was dying ! i was scared at first but the odd thing is after a while i felt peaceful .. i remember being on a gurney being tranfered to a different hospital looking up at the fall sky and thinking this is the last time i will see it -
whats funny is how the doctors and nurses act when they know your dying . they wont tell you but you can feel it . they wont make eye contact etc etc
its a give away when they send in the priest lol but knew it anyway -- they pumped sooooo much morphine into me so i was comfortable -- soon as the doc looked at the nurse and said triple his morphine i knew they felt i wasnt going to make it and thats when i gave in and felt peaceful - its hard to explain !!
oh and what almost killed me was meningitis [sp]
whats funny is how the doctors and nurses act when they know your dying . they wont tell you but you can feel it . they wont make eye contact etc etc
its a give away when they send in the priest lol but knew it anyway -- they pumped sooooo much morphine into me so i was comfortable -- soon as the doc looked at the nurse and said triple his morphine i knew they felt i wasnt going to make it and thats when i gave in and felt peaceful - its hard to explain !!
oh and what almost killed me was meningitis [sp]

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