I don't have kids and I honestly cant imagine the pain you're going thru, but we're all here for you for what that's worth. You're a tough motherfucker but don't try to keep everything bottled up, reach out if you need to, and when you're ready.
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The struggle is a motherfucker...no matter what your doing...you go to the store n people are smiling...telling you happy new year....it's hard not to snap. But you know they have no idea what your dealing with...
The fatigue...it's like the only thing I can compare it to was combat... constantly completely exhausted...but can't sleep..it's bad...can't turn it off in your head...I can only hope at some point I can learn to control it.
One foot in front of the other just keep driving on.
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Originally posted by lipripper View PostThe struggle is a motherfucker...no matter what your doing...you go to the store n people are smiling...telling you happy new year....it's hard not to snap. But you know they have no idea what your dealing with...
The fatigue...it's like the only thing I can compare it to was combat... constantly completely exhausted...but can't sleep..it's bad...can't turn it off in your head...I can only hope at some point I can learn to control it.
One foot in front of the other just keep driving on.
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Ate my first full meal today...fucking burger n fries...lol down almost 15 lbs now . The body does strange shit when under such mental stress... Back at work this week. It seems to help get the mind off stuff but hard to concentrate on stuff as well. Sleep is still almost nothing. Maybe 2 or 3 hours a day max . Moving fwd men... Feel like a bitch relaying this here but fuck it...it's an outlet...
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Originally posted by lipripper View PostAte my first full meal today...fucking burger n fries...lol down almost 15 lbs now . The body does strange shit when under such mental stress... Back at work this week. It seems to help get the mind off stuff but hard to concentrate on stuff as well. Sleep is still almost nothing. Maybe 2 or 3 hours a day max . Moving fwd men... Feel like a bitch relaying this here but fuck it...it's an outlet...
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Been just over a month now. HowThe body reacts to this is crazy. Still can't sleep managing 2 or 3 hours a day at most. Like a zombie during the day from the fatigue. I'm down 17 lbs...look like shit bags under my eyes..looks like I've aged 10 years. Getting one meal a day down. Once in a while I do eat good for a day.
I need to try n get back into the gym mentally I just don't feel ready...but physically...I know I need to. I feel weak as shit.
The pain has filled some..work helps when I'm busy as I'm moving thinking...but dead in-between tasks. I did manage to go off shore one time. It was a great mental break as I pretty much focused on the fishing most of the day and navigation of the boat. That was a good day.
I've started thinking about going to the VA to try n get something to help me sleep. I really believe that the sleep would do me wonders....but I don't want to get labeled..I'm not one to ask for help or like to borrow shit.I feel it shows weakness. Yet......I find my self actually thinking I may need to get something. On occasion I do a few shots before I try n sleep...but limit it as I don't want to become dependant on it...fuck that...
Still moving fwd but this is a motherfucking slow up hill March.
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Originally posted by lipripper View PostBeen just over a month now. HowThe body reacts to this is crazy. Still can't sleep managing 2 or 3 hours a day at most. Like a zombie during the day from the fatigue. I'm down 17 lbs...look like shit bags under my eyes..looks like I've aged 10 years. Getting one meal a day down. Once in a while I do eat good for a day.
I need to try n get back into the gym mentally I just don't feel ready...but physically...I know I need to. I feel weak as shit.
The pain has filled some..work helps when I'm busy as I'm moving thinking...but dead in-between tasks. I did manage to go off shore one time. It was a great mental break as I pretty much focused on the fishing most of the day and navigation of the boat. That was a good day.
I've started thinking about going to the VA to try n get something to help me sleep. I really believe that the sleep would do me wonders....but I don't want to get labeled..I'm not one to ask for help or like to borrow shit.I feel it shows weakness. Yet......I find my self actually thinking I may need to get something. On occasion I do a few shots before I try n sleep...but limit it as I don't want to become dependant on it...fuck that...
Still moving fwd but this is a motherfucking slow up hill March.
this is the same exact drug that's in ZZZQuil but they triple the price and call it a sleep aid.
each tab is 25mgs. take 4 tabs 20-30 minutes before bed. if you wake up 3-4 hours later and cant sleep take 4 more.
this drug has been used by millions of people for decades. no sides aside from making you sleepy.
if 4 tabs isn't strong enough for you take 6 tabs the next night.
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